my beating heart

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the privilege to transform random thoughts and ideas into
written form…
the power of a word
to spark imagination
to trigger memories
to convey emotions

with them, we build up


and often we tear down


an idea
a spark…a dream
comes alive, or is put to death
with a word.

I believe words have heartbeats. Filled with electrical energy, pulsing with potential to bring life or death depending on the intention. Words stick with us. They imbed deep behind our ribs and echo their beating voice in our inner most places. – Mandy Arioto

the heartbeat of a word.
“For the word of God is alive and powerful…” – Hebrews 4:12

…the heartbeat of God
…and the thing that makes my heart beat

so often we are reminded to be still…
know who God is…
find the rhythm of His heart…recognize it, feel it, listen to it
find the solace in His heart…in His word
steady, even, strong, constant

“I love you.
You are enough.
You are not alone.
Cry.  Weep.
I’ve got this.
Let me hold you; let me carry this with you.
You are unique.
You are mine.
You are worthy.
I love you.”

words spoken to us…
into our lives
with the breath of God tickling our ears as He gently whispers truth
as He speaks life into and over us.

words have heartbeats

“Heartbeats with the power to heal and restore. Power to bring things to life.” – Mandy Arioto

to those with whom we come in contact…
with our families…
with our coworkers…
with our friends…
with our children.

May all our kids be brought to life because we made a little extra effort to press our lips to their ear and whisper goodness over them. – Mandy Arioto

I don’t have children, but I do speak words to people, into folks. (and to myself)
Am I speaking hope?
Am I speaking life?
Am I speaking trash?
Am I speaking hatred and anger?
Am I speaking frustration and disappointment?
Am I building up or tearing down?

the Word of God is alive and powerful…
our words have life, too.
they have a pulse.

how’s your heartbeat?

the pulse of grace.



what’s up?


I am taking a comp exam tomorrow morning, and I need to review for that…that’s what’s up.


today’s my birthday, and I am being a little self-indulgent and taking time out to write a little ditty

42 years…
that’s a few
scraped knees
bruised egos
gray hairs
less-than-awesome snippets
and moments of grace.

a colleague of mine introduced me to a new song, a new group, just the other day.
Lennon and Maisy sing a song titled, “That’s What’s Up”.

the song is not overtly Christ centered, but take a listen for a moment:

…While I was feeling such a mess, I thought you’d leave me behind
While I was being such a wreck, I thought you’d treat me unkind
But you helped me change my mind…

I’ll be the sun, you be the shining
You be the clock, I’ll be the timing…

Then I found forever
Hey, hey, love
We’ve been best friends forever darling
That’s what’s up

Forever, no matter what
You’ve got my love to lean on darling
That’s what’s up
You’ve got my love to lean on darling
No matter what

You be the book, I’ll be the binding
You be the words, I’ll be the rhyming…

You be the bird, I’ll be the feather
We’ll be the best of friends forever…

42 years to grow
42 years to learn “what’s up”
…to learn that God has not, will not, ever leave
…to learn that I’ve always got someone in my corner
…to realize that there is Someone who calls me “darling”
…to know that God makes me complete

…without Him to bind my pages, I am not a book
…without Him to make sense of my thoughts, they are just words
…without Him to surround my entire being to create a new identity, I am just a cold and naked

that’s what’s up.

so, as I return to my regularly scheduled programming…
I look forward with hope.
this is going to be a big year…

I hope to live where I can’t touch the bottom…and where I swallow God. – paraphrased from Ann Voskamp

Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see

I’ve tried to win this war I confess
My hands are weary I need Your rest
Mighty Warrior, King of the fight
No matter what I face, You’re by my side

When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead You have not seen
So, in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want Lord and nothing less

You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation; the rock on which I stand

Your ways are always higher
Your plans are always good
There’s not a place where I’ll go, You’ve not already stood

When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You! – Trust in You, Lauren Daigle

grace…it’s what’s up






that’s enough for today


that's enough

the innocence of a child…
the unknowing wittiness of a toddler…
the truth spoken.
I was watching my friends’ little peanut the other day.

We had been reading books (and by that I mean the same book)
having a dance party with the Wiggles
scattering plastic food everywhere
assembling a floor puzzle only to destroy it and reassemble it…
yep…she’s 2.
Then we sat down at the table to use her “computer”
and very abruptly and in an as-a-matter-of-fact way, she turned it off,
closed the lid, pushed it to the back of the table, and declared that that was “enough for today”.
Ok, perhaps the sentence wasn’t complete, but I knew what she was saying.

My little poofy-haired friend has great wisdom.

I am wondering how many times I need to tell myself (or listen to God whispering), “that’s enough for today”?
that’s enough…
talking negatively to myself
thinking I’m not equipped
picking apart the not-so-lovely parts of my day
focusing on the greater-than-life schedule that is looming…

that’s enough for today.

the anxiety starts to bubble and simmer
“what about…”
the unfairness of life begins to blanket
“what if…”
the unknown becomes the focus

that’s enough for today.

it’s time to refocus
it’s time to become aware
it’s time to breathe deeply
it’s time to trust

that’s enough for today.

“…I always have more than enough.  He offers a resting place for me in his luxurious love.
His tracks take me to an oasis of peace, the quiet brook of bliss.
That’s where he restores and revives my life.
Lord, even when your path takes me through the valley of deepest darkness, fear will never conquer me, for you already have!
So why would I fear the future?
For I am being pursued only by your goodness and unfailing love.” – Psalm 23 (select verses from The Passion translation)

that’s enough for today.

God is enough for today.
grace is enough for today.



earlier bits

January 2016