faith, reality, hope and anxiety


(hello, friends!  it has been months since I have written, and my thoughts are as random as ever…enjoy the ride)

“Risk, then, is not just part of life. It is life. The place between your comfort zone and your dream is where life takes place. It’s the high-anxiety zone, but it’s also where you discover
who you are.”
Nick Vujicic

books strewn on the floor
chapters to read
case vignettes to dissect
treatment plans to ponder
clients with whom to sit
a job that requires some part of me…
and in the bottom (almost bottom) of the stack
sits my Bible.


the bottom of the pile
lost in the shuffle
strewn among the papers…

is that indicative of where my relationship with God is right now?


I have allowed my life…
my choices
my chaos
my schedule
to dictate where God falls in my life.

that, my friends, is the real struggle.

I have taken God for granted in my life.
Yep, He is always there
never going to leave or forsake me
has plans for my future
that are engraved with hope.

when I choose not to give God a voice in my life
I think that I may hurt His heart.

my heart hurts, sometimes.
when my friends hurt
when life doesn’t make sense
when I am exhausted and drained
when I don’t understand
when I feel alone.

If we don’t allow ourselves to feel our feelings, they have a habit of peeking around the corners of our lives, breaking in at the most inopportune moments. – Sarah Bessey

the heart of God
I imagine
could be much like mine.

ever wonder what feelings God feels?
ever wonder if maybe they are the same feelings that we feel?

ever felt at the end of yourself?


“God does not change, but He uses change—to change us. He sends us on journeys that bring us to the end of ourselves. We often feel out of control, yet if we embrace His leading, we may find ourselves on the ride of our lives.”- Jen Hatmaker

oh. man.

out of control.
end of myself.

I am there.
and perhaps, just maybe
I am beginning the ride of my life.

…and anxiety 🙂

Enlighten what is dark in me
Strengthen was is weak in me
Mend what is broken in me
Bind what is bruised in me
Heal what is sick in me
Revive whatever peace and love has died in me. – Sumi

struggling with grace…








earlier bits

September 2015