rescue me

ever feel like you are drowning?
life is happening all around, and you feel like you are flailing out-of-control?
the waters get deeper…
your legs tire…
how much longer can you keep your head above water?

how did things get like this? how did i end up here, in the midst of all of this?  now what do i do?
the tides of frustration, confusion, selfishness, anger, feeling overwhelmed, fear threaten and the storm clouds loom.

just within your reach…a live saver…your life Savior.
the waters are still deep…your legs still tire…but to be able to wrap your arms around Jesus and have He ease the burden is priceless.

i would have written, and in fact did write, those words a few weeks ago.  but in the middle of writing this blog entry, i knew i was just writing what i am expected to write, what sounds hopeful – after all, i am a follower of Christ.  i can’t really pen my true doubts and emotions.  my defense mechanism would be breached.  i’d be exposed and emotionally vulnerable.
have you ever been at a point where genuine exposure, even to God, seems too risky?
maybe i am the only one, but i am there, friends.

years and years of church and Bible studies and teaching…
decades of attending worship services…
bringing an occassional message…
posting and reposting encouraging snippets on facebook….

and i find myself on a daily basis, in the midst of a quagmire of doubts..frustration..exhaustion..questions..fear..selfishness..
yep…treading water, trying to stay afloat.

my future isn’t gloomy.
i know Who holds my future.  i know, i know, i know….

and so…now is the time for me to be risky with God.
He is waiting to rescue me…

I will gladly rejoice because of Your gracious love because You recognized the sadness of my affliction.  You felt deep compassion when You saw the pains of my soul. – Psalm 31:7 (the Voice)

seeking grace…


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